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okay, so after a swarm of questions many of which left me with my jaw on the floor... i realized something...

people are afraid of pushing a button to see what it does

okay, to backtrack first. i am self taught in photoshop, had no books had no tutorials, had a borrowed i think 7... dunno which was before cs2 when i started,  i learned it by ....pressing a button and seeing what it does

i explored, i tried stuff out.

i had no teachers no schools no education on this stuff

i saw a button i pressed it.

that is how about 9 years ago when i first decided to try and apply digital coloring to early pages of ravine, i was dabbing paint on a page. i came to the point where i had to paint a waterfall. so , just for fun i tried putting scattering on the foam brush i made, a simple thing. and i was gonna see if smudge could be scattered. it had a weird side effect. it blended colors. i went on playing with the settings, till i realized that unchecking spacing completely eliminated the smudge brush lag, and turned it into a blender.

from there on i worked through the method of trial and error to develop my own approach in digital work. and don't even get me started on how many people told me i was doing it wrong back then.  but i persisted

i knew what i needed, i needed a balance of speed and quality that would enable me to tell stories the way i wanted to tell them. i worked smart!

now to the basics. i get a bunch of questions about techniques, people wanting me to make tutorials on the most absurd things...

and then it hit me... you lazy  unmotivated  wastes of effort!!!!!

you don't want tutorials, you want skills on a platter!


see, next week my usb microphone arrives... regular one don't work on my laptop, and then i will finally make some real and important tutorials

but that wont help you! see its not about tutorials, most i can teach  you is a few photoshop tips and tricks. what you lack is the relentless motivation, the competitive spirit! YOU LACK THE FIRE!!!!!!!!

what i do is not magic, it is a product of 17 years of persistent practice. 8 to 10 hours a day, . 8 years of that time i had no internet, i had no tutorials, i had no books, but i looked around, i drew from porno magazines... i was the only teenager i knew who bought those for drawing...too... XD

nowadays you have the internet, all the information readily available, want anatomy, google it, want reference google it, want porn...yeah.. you got that on speeddial don't ya?

see, , idf you really truly wanted to do this stuff your whole life, you would take it seriously enough to take the first take that initiative. you can have all the tutorials ,all the books in the world, but if you don't put in the time, it wont help you one  bit.

see, i'm not gonna stop till i drop.  there are far better artists out there than me,  superior in skills, speed technique, you name it...

i cant allow that....

but also, i want to tell stories. i want to keep drawing them, that is my fire, that is my drive. and between that and my natural friendly competitive spirit, i have the fuel to go on.

so ask yourselves, do you feel the desire, can you forgive yourselves if one day you are working in some shitty job   thinking of what ifs. i can tell you this, it is the best job in the world, when you wake up and cant wait to draw something new

i went through shit and no exit hell to get to where i am, i had no contacts, no  open doors, no connections. just fire and perseverance, and trust me if i made it  so can you

so yeah, tutorials are coming, but the rest ladies and gentlemen is up to you!
  • Listening to: rhapsody of fire nightwish
  • Reading: scripts by my writer
  • Playing: diablo2
  • Eating: much less
  • Drinking: cofee
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SManship Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2014
Very nice and very true.
Zazill Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hahaha yeah even using porn to learn anatomy from, I know how that feels. Aahh good times.
nebezial Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014
an inevitable  phase XD
Zazill Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Before the internet, there was just no other way to get hold of naked models :iconbouncyboobsplz:
Goodluck with Death vigil :icongrinfaceplz:
nebezial Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014
ye olden days of paper and inks! XD
Azurewhiterose Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I always read this for motivation thanks for taking the time to write this.:)
pfendino Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2013   Traditional Artist
Thanks for the motiviational words!! Really needed that today!
MaverickHNTR Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I like to read and reread this from time to time. And I laugh at "and then it hit me... you lazy unmotivated wastes of effort!!!!" every time. lol Thanks for the motivational preverbal foot in the ass. lol
Metal-Rocker Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2013
As good as your tutorials are, nothing beats what you write in your journal. Keep posting your opinions.
Metal-Rocker Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2013
My favorite is still "oldschool walk it off mentality"
Bracey100 Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Scattering on the smudge too...sonuabitch! That neve even crossed my mind! Time to go press more buttons. Just when I think Ive got photoshop completely figured out I learn something new. And I agree, if you want to learn something you will have the motivation to do so, especially now there is no excuse with the vast number of video tutorials on youtube. Laziness is not an option.
MTgrave1 Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2013  Professional General Artist
"And that's the way it is", I miss those days.
Damners Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013
Hello, I have never commented on your work or journals but have watched your work for a long time. I just want to say I am glad I read this, because this is exactly what I told myself the other day. I worked in military sim when I really wanted to be a texture artist for games. I hated it but stayed for the money and benifits, and recently due to the US defense budget cuts got laid off. So I told myself since it made me so unhappy that I would start working on my portfolio and not stop until someone hired me for what I love. This just proves i am moving in the right direction, so thank you.
Soriyns-Knight Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2012  Student General Artist
Well then I guess I should through some wood on to the fire in my heart and get to work, right after this nap and an hour of Minecraft.
Soriyns-Knight Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2012  Student General Artist
YeriDG Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
It kinda made me laugh cause your absolutely right xD
Times like these I'm totally happy I didn't give up on english back in school haha :D
I'm kinda working in one of those jobs you mentioned (temporarily) and right now that's a motivation for me,
cause I don't even feel like I could do it the rest of my life ^^
MrKelzack Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2012
Sir. You have inspired me countless time. I watch your video to get inspiration from. Your video got me to start making my own brushes and experimenting with photoshop. Just want to say Thanks.
wla91 Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You sir, are a true master, so much truth in these words.
von19 Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Student Writer
Wow... this was so inspirational... and your 1000% right, I couldnt have said it better myself. I've been procrastinating and just fucking my time up. No more. Thank you, I dont think you understand how much of an impact your words have.
phoenixleo Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2012
Ellofayne Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
very inspirational!! you make me laugh. SO excited for Ravine!!

by the way, it's coming out on my birthday, does that mean I get a free copy? ;)
Einblick989 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
nebezial, I love you <3
kianahsaro Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012
All I can think to say is thank you. This is something that needs to be said more often.
AlanRalph Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Professional General Artist
My first version of Photoshop was 2.5 (second-hand copy off of a friend) back in 1993! :granny: Sadly, the graphic card in my PC at that time didn't support full colour unless you dropped down to 640x480 resolution. My iPhone has better resolution than that! :lol: I also remember that PS 3.05 was the first version to work with Windows 95. :windows:

I've been through several PCs and versions of both Photoshop and Windows since then. I've now made the move to an iMac - Adobe Creative Cloud FTW, just stuck in my ID and downloaded the Mac versions of the apps to my new machine :D And still finding new and better ways to do things. :)
Jiongu-kun Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2012  Student Filmographer
I finally got around to reading this and I have to agree. I may be absolutely pants with photoshop, but getting out there and practicing is the only way to learn. My animation course work is prime example of this.
Lilith-the-5th Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
This Journal will be featured on my main page as one of the most inspiring journals I've ever read. And I'm also willing to tell you why.

The fact is, many people who'd like to become a professional think they need schools and university to accomplish. Though that piece of paper could help you in some way, though some hours in a class could teach you some new techniques and tips, though those books may show and explain some symbols you didn't know, they're JUST a piece of paper, some hours in class, and books.
My fiancee has been struggling for years because he wanted to go to an university to become a designer of monsters for videogames.
And then there's me, a wannabe illustrator and writer, who tried attending a literature university and has been disgusted with it. I strongly believe exactly what you wrote here.
I've told him, for years, to keep practising and send his works around. He has a some kind of talent inventing new monters, "then refine it, show it off!" I sad several times, but he's always been so focused on looking at tutorials, books, believing an university would open him some unrevealed ways he couldn't have without that.

But no, I don't think that's how it works, either. I gave him the same advice, again, few days ago: even if you're working now, and have a tiring job, draw. Then send your works around, practise more, try again, live of it! Damn it, if you really want it, you just have to do it, your only obstacle in reaching your goal is you.

This is the reason why I'm going to translate every single word of this journal to him (he still needs some help with English).
And I really want to tell you--- Thank you.
flutist Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Professional General Artist
hardwork is the way, motivation is the key :D

some comparison: I actually make some edible food nowadays, but sometime last year people don't want to touch my cooking. I know also a lot of people here in DA who start very low (they seem lack of talent, or very ordinary at first) after being very active and submit a lot of arts, interacting with many people, actually doing advice/inputs for improvement.. they are shining now, and some of them get DD, like twice.

I see them improved over time and I want to yell and tell people.. you just don't know. you might think that some people get lucky and born with talent/skill, and for them making arts is a piece of cake. And you unfortunately born without the talents, and you won't bother to improve the skill because it's too hard to become like them. I said the truth is, every piece of art is HARDWORK, nothing is easy, no shortcut here.
annaoi Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Agreed. Motivation is the key.
ChrisMcQuinlan Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Professional Traditional Artist
best journal ive read in a long fucking time! im sick of people wanting to become some fantastic artist overnight. it ust doesnt work that way.
but in the end, thats why the hard workers make it, and those who wait for their platter fail.
shibaji Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yes. There is no "right" way to do things. A lot of people who are still learning want short cuts. But there is no way around it, you have to learn everything about everything to understand how to use to tool available as you want.
mrfuzzynutz Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hmm..I know for a fact I do not lack fire, in fact my desire to be better is all that keeps me picking up the pencil.
To my friends and family my stuff is "AWESOME" But I weigh it against other experienced artist...I suck! Yeah I know my stuff is getting better, but I want to be able to be good enough so others can feel what I do, and see what I do when I draw something

But for that, I need to study stud study study and when I think I get the handle on it, study some more
I see out decent tutorials so i can at least know which what i need to go
How I get there is completely up to me, but at least point me in the right direction

So I know this was a generalization, but I did take offense, so after I right this....I am going to go draw again to get better and try my own waterfalls lol
Thank you for providing the fuel to the fire
ShalottAvalthyl Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Fuck. You're awesome.
Faythsrequiem Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I have worked that shitty job, wondering "What if I'd just followed my heart, my passion? What if I'd not been afraid to fail as an artist? If I'd just tried a lil harder to stick it out and not cave to get a 'real' job Would I be happier?", and discovered after a long and wasted decade that it is unforgivable to not put in the effort to do what makes you happiest. Everything you've said is the truth; sometimes in order to grow and progress we need to make blind leaps of faith like pushing that button even if we don't know what it does. You'll never know if it's the one button that you can't do with out until you do, right?
As for those that want everything handed to them on a platter? There will always be those in everything, those that think that there's some magic formula or right way of doing things that will make them instantly better. Unfortunately there's no way to really dissuade them of their belief in this, all any of us can do is make the decision to not let them overly hamper us in our own persuits.
FalkSMASH Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Truest thing I've ever read.
Draw2Death Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Student General Artist
cudn't agree more.....
xevozzez Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Congratulations on all the hard work and on making it this far!
Good luck on getting to the top!
You got my vote.
LuisPuig Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Professional General Artist
I feel like crap and motivated at the same time. Amazing. It's harsh but true. Thank you for being bold enough, and more importantly, caring enough, to speak the truth and speak it boldly.
Chronorin Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
I'm not at your level yet, but i get asked the same type of questions -- how do you draw? How do you make your colors? if i can explain in a paragraph.

I sometimes feel sorry for kids these days. They have so much endless entertainment available that they'll never be BORED enough to start drawing. I mean, i started drawing in the '80s because i loved the Transformers, but the Transformers came on TV a few times a week, and apart from that... there were no Transformers to be seen, so we started drawing Transformers because it was the only way to SEE Transformers most of the time. But kids today can go online and watch endless episodes of anything at any time.

When will they be bored enough to start drawing? And will they stick at it for five years?
JasonTormos Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012   Digital Artist
Very well said :)
itchcrotch Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Damnit Mr. Sejic! I RESPECT YOU!!
Primal-Lord Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Student General Artist
I defintely needed someone to honestly say that, good on you sir :clap: hopefully because of you, I'll be able to try and rekindle my fire for art so that I can use it to help me through my animation course in university :D
TheBlu3Giraffe Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Student
XD you're awesome, lol. Best motivational speech ive heard for art so far! C: (no joke there)
bvanhorn Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Nicely put.

Practice and effort will always surpass natural talent. There are often many open door waiting for one to step through them, but it takes hard work and effort to keep them from slamming in one's face.

My favorite thing to do is to try to do something, screw it up royally and LEARN from my mistakes. As long as I still have most of my fingers left, I figure no harm, no foul.

The nice thing about most computer software is the UNDO button. It allows you to step away from the abyss and go in another direction. Although it is fun to see what one can do while falling....
n-pigeon Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012   Digital Artist
Burning Rainbow Soul And Thunder of Epicness!
Judgevalue Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012
You... Just...

I think I might be in love with you.
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Malzberry Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
"you lazy unmotivated wastes of effort!!!!!"

I love this
Mavrosh Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Professional General Artist
You forgot to mention the "Magic button" that photoshop and other programs have.... the button you press and the computer does all by itself.... you know, many people are expecting this.... digital art = magic button = easily done without any effort. :lol:
SeekinaVarasati Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
...why would someone fave a journal...
Because of this.
QuantumCrab Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012
You speak the truth, man. All the tutorials and tips and tricks and words of wisdom will never, EVER just GIVE you skills. You've got to work at them. Thank you for preaching this. ROCK ON!
DeaconStrucktor Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Just came across this journal [link] from *jialu :iconjialu: today that underscores your points in this article. :thumbsup::)
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