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okay, so after a swarm of questions many of which left me with my jaw on the floor... i realized something...

people are afraid of pushing a button to see what it does

okay, to backtrack first. i am self taught in photoshop, had no books had no tutorials, had a borrowed i think 7... dunno which was before cs2 when i started,  i learned it by ....pressing a button and seeing what it does

i explored, i tried stuff out.

i had no teachers no schools no education on this stuff

i saw a button i pressed it.

that is how about 9 years ago when i first decided to try and apply digital coloring to early pages of ravine, i was dabbing paint on a page. i came to the point where i had to paint a waterfall. so , just for fun i tried putting scattering on the foam brush i made, a simple thing. and i was gonna see if smudge could be scattered. it had a weird side effect. it blended colors. i went on playing with the settings, till i realized that unchecking spacing completely eliminated the smudge brush lag, and turned it into a blender.

from there on i worked through the method of trial and error to develop my own approach in digital work. and don't even get me started on how many people told me i was doing it wrong back then.  but i persisted

i knew what i needed, i needed a balance of speed and quality that would enable me to tell stories the way i wanted to tell them. i worked smart!

now to the basics. i get a bunch of questions about techniques, people wanting me to make tutorials on the most absurd things...

and then it hit me... you lazy  unmotivated  wastes of effort!!!!!

you don't want tutorials, you want skills on a platter!


see, next week my usb microphone arrives... regular one don't work on my laptop, and then i will finally make some real and important tutorials

but that wont help you! see its not about tutorials, most i can teach  you is a few photoshop tips and tricks. what you lack is the relentless motivation, the competitive spirit! YOU LACK THE FIRE!!!!!!!!

what i do is not magic, it is a product of 17 years of persistent practice. 8 to 10 hours a day, . 8 years of that time i had no internet, i had no tutorials, i had no books, but i looked around, i drew from porno magazines... i was the only teenager i knew who bought those for drawing...too... XD

nowadays you have the internet, all the information readily available, want anatomy, google it, want reference google it, want porn...yeah.. you got that on speeddial don't ya?

see, , idf you really truly wanted to do this stuff your whole life, you would take it seriously enough to take the first take that initiative. you can have all the tutorials ,all the books in the world, but if you don't put in the time, it wont help you one  bit.

see, i'm not gonna stop till i drop.  there are far better artists out there than me,  superior in skills, speed technique, you name it...

i cant allow that....

but also, i want to tell stories. i want to keep drawing them, that is my fire, that is my drive. and between that and my natural friendly competitive spirit, i have the fuel to go on.

so ask yourselves, do you feel the desire, can you forgive yourselves if one day you are working in some shitty job   thinking of what ifs. i can tell you this, it is the best job in the world, when you wake up and cant wait to draw something new

i went through shit and no exit hell to get to where i am, i had no contacts, no  open doors, no connections. just fire and perseverance, and trust me if i made it  so can you

so yeah, tutorials are coming, but the rest ladies and gentlemen is up to you!
  • Listening to: rhapsody of fire nightwish
  • Reading: scripts by my writer
  • Playing: diablo2
  • Eating: much less
  • Drinking: cofee
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CrypticMachine Jan 22, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I always read this for motivation thanks for taking the time to write this.:)
pfendino Oct 29, 2013   Traditional Artist
Thanks for the motiviational words!! Really needed that today!
MaverickHNTR Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I like to read and reread this from time to time. And I laugh at "and then it hit me... you lazy unmotivated wastes of effort!!!!" every time. lol Thanks for the motivational preverbal foot in the ass. lol
As good as your tutorials are, nothing beats what you write in your journal. Keep posting your opinions.
My favorite is still "oldschool walk it off mentality"
Bracey100 Feb 7, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Scattering on the smudge too...sonuabitch! That neve even crossed my mind! Time to go press more buttons. Just when I think Ive got photoshop completely figured out I learn something new. And I agree, if you want to learn something you will have the motivation to do so, especially now there is no excuse with the vast number of video tutorials on youtube. Laziness is not an option.
MTgrave1 Jan 29, 2013  Professional General Artist
"And that's the way it is", I miss those days.
Hello, I have never commented on your work or journals but have watched your work for a long time. I just want to say I am glad I read this, because this is exactly what I told myself the other day. I worked in military sim when I really wanted to be a texture artist for games. I hated it but stayed for the money and benifits, and recently due to the US defense budget cuts got laid off. So I told myself since it made me so unhappy that I would start working on my portfolio and not stop until someone hired me for what I love. This just proves i am moving in the right direction, so thank you.
Soriyns-Knight Dec 25, 2012  Student General Artist
Well then I guess I should through some wood on to the fire in my heart and get to work, right after this nap and an hour of Minecraft.
Soriyns-Knight Dec 25, 2012  Student General Artist
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